NP - As Twere' The Mirror - Polar Bear Club
I'm sorry blog. I really am. I've neglected you for way too long. I dunno. Life's been busier than ever lately. In a good way. I mean, work isn't the greatest but it could be worse. Money is good. I've been making a lot of music too. My music isn't where I want it to be yet but people seem to be somewhat interested so that's been pretty fun. And tonight was so much fun, playing my song with the BJs.
Ok - time to move slightly away from being a young girl talking about myself.
Tomorrow night I get an award of merit for writing. I'm kinda not looking forward to it though to be honest. It's just reminding me that we didn't actually move on which I'm finding pretty depressing. I dunno, an award is pretty cool but even then I find myself disappointed that it wasn't the award of excellence. I know, that's bad but I can't help but feel that way.
Ok, so now I need to really let something out here. I've been crying every night for about the past 3 weeks lately. I find something's just missing in my life. I don't know how to fix it. I lay awake for hours trying to figure out what it is but every hour spent doing that is another hour I cry for. It's awful. And on top of that I have this feeling of worry that I'm not a strong enough person. No, not really. I made that all up. Sick, eh?
It's almost 2 am. I want to figure out how to make this entry better but I think sleep is a good idea.
BTW, I'm stealing an idea from Brendan Kelly's blog. I'm putting in labels which are made to sound like quotes from the cover of a magazine. I hope it shows up.
G'night Y'all!
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