Elephant Breakdown!

NP: East Jesus Nowhere - Green Day

Oh, blog, how I've neglected you still (styll in newspeak). I don't mean to. I just have nothing interesting to talk about. I work. I make music in the form of poor demos. I go to school. I watch hockey. I sleep. I eat. I poop. I...yeah you get the idea.

I feel so exhausted and worn out from life that I haven't been able to rant for the longest while. Not just in this blog but in real life too. Not a true big rant anyways. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. I mean, maybe it's a sign that I'm a little less negative at the moment (but I'm not even sure that's true). Or it could mean, and I think it does, that I'm just sorta tired of people acting like people. Everyone's actions are so...I don't even know...

typical/predictable/fake/boring/self-serving/self-preserving

I don't know how to make that make sense. I guess I'll give an example. I'm tired of people saying "I love you" to their friends. Ok, I mean that in a certain way. Like, if you were truly telling the friend that you care about them that's one thing. That's not what I'm talking about though. Everyone says "Looooove you" to each other and I'm not even sure what my problem with it is. For one, it seems very fake. Sometimes it comes after a fun jab at the other's expense but even then it bothers me. Shrug. I'm really not sure if I'm making much sense and me repeating how much I doubt that I make sense probably makes it make less sense.

Everything seems very formulated.

And maybe I'm too cynical but I always find deeper meanings in peoples reactions. For example, I often think people's actions/words are meant to gain something from the other person whether it be material or whether it be that they just want to bone the person.

Eh, I don't know that I'm always that cynical though. Usually, after a while, when I accuse someone of having some type of hidden agenda I turn out to be right (that can sound full of myself or something, I don't care).

And it's not as if I think NO ONE does nice things for the sake of being nice. That's not what I'm saying at all. It's more that when people are doing something to get something, it bugs me a lot and that I think I'm picking up on it more now than I used to. I also wonder if it's not that I pick up on it but that our society (or maybe just our generation) is changing.

Coming back to the "I love you" thing. People don't just do it with their good friends. That line gets tossed around so often and, to me, it seems so obviously just a way for people to bring themselves closer to other people and cut short the amount of time it takes to build a closer friendship. Or, in other cases it's used as a way to keep broken friendships together. The "I love you" thing is just an example of all of this of course.

OR, maybe I'm just letting a pet peeve bother me too much. I dunno. I don't think so.

The important thing is that I'm making sense to myself.

I'm feeling pretty inspired right now. By Green Day too. I downloaded about 1/3 of their new album that leaked. It seems like it's gonna be a hit and miss album. From the live stuff I've heard on youtube, their new music video, their new b-sides, and the 4 or 5 songs I just downloaded I really like some of it and completely dislike other parts.

The new single with the music video is pretty blah. It's so repetitive. It COULD have been a good song. And 21st Century Breakdown, the song itself and not the album, doesn't seem to make much sense and sounds like a ripoff of their last album/Queen but with shittier lyrics.

Then there's songs like "Eats Jesus Nowhere", "Restless Heart Syndrome" and "Lights Out" that I'm really liking. "21 Guns" is ok too. And what I've heard of "Murder City" on youtube I've really liked.

Anyways, I don't know why but their new music is inspiring me. Maybe because what's different about it, so far, most of the songs seem to be somewhat/a lot different from stuff they've done in the past. I wanna make awesome music. I'm going to try to write a song tomorrow evening since band practice got cancelled.

Alright, that concludes today's confusing entry. Heh, I know you're thinking it. I ranted. I know. Yay.

G'night Y'all!